The Truth

I drew the “Black Egg” just now in a co-working session I am attending. It is the final card in the Wild and Unknown Spirit Animal deck. “Speaking from Authentic Voice, the Truth”, it says.

From the Wild Unknown Spirit Animal Oracle Deck by Kim Krans.

I own this deck too, yet I don’t feel its power fulfilled unless I draw the cards when in community with others. There are 10 of us sitting at this table and wow, its potency is felt in this moment. Before I knew what the card was representing, I said to the group that my intention was to write. Here’s what it says:

"The black egg contains one of life's most essential treasures - the truth. Inside of it resides no confusion, excuses, small talk, noise, or lies (not even white ones). This living breathing vessel harbors only that which rings truly. When this essence is in balance, we speak slowly and clearly. We are drawn to activities like writing, reading, teaching, singing or perhaps public speaking."
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I took this to be a pretty clear and direct invitation to write from my most true voice and to validate what I had just experienced. So I disregarder the piece I started writing a few days ago and started fresh to honor and work with the essence of energy presenting itself right now.
I was feeling out of sorts before leaving my house to join this co-working group I am sitting in right now. It was after some hours of meeting most of the needs of my eight year old and less of my own. It didn’t occur to me that my discomfort wasn’t the clutter in the house or endless job of summertime parenting, the laundry that needs to be done or the clutter that continues to breed in my house. Though it did present as that at first.

Once I got out the door and on the road, the tears came as I realized that so much of what I was feeling was actually the vulnerability and mortality of my sweet amazing 82 year old dad who had surgery this morning. It was amazing to me that it hadn’t occurred to me that this would be the main cause of my discomfort, but sometimes it takes an unfolding process to recognize what is happening. Especially when one is parenting! (Anyone relate?) Once these feelings had a chance to be recognized and honored, the tension slipped away and my system opened. I felt so much better. I called my mom to see how he was doing. She reported that he was just out of the surgery, that it went really well and he was having some jello. Whew.

After this experience, I was able to shift into preparing for what I plan to do in these coming days, starting to focus again on myself and my work when Nico returns to school tomorrow. I put music on to help me with the transition and once I arrived at my destination, I parked and sat for a few minutes to help me slow down and remember the TRUTH:

The most important thing right now is to connect with my spirit.

I have all that I need.

I am arriving at the right time and in the right place.

I can SLOW DOWN to pivot intentionally toward what is meaningful and depth provoking; toward what feels anchoring and nourishing.

I closed my eyes and breathed in the relief of this knowledge. Then I gathered all my energy from everywhere it has been in the last couple days, sent roots down and walked in.

So here I am, so much more myself from taking those few minutes to anchor into my soul, into my truth. Much more present and ready to be with you in these words. I know you will receive them some time after I’ve written them and they will continue to hold the energy signature of intent, emotion and invitation that they embody as they come into form through my finger tips. No matter when or how many times they are read.

With these words I am now turning to focus on you. I am inviting you to also slow down the rush of perceived external needs and remember what is most TRUE for you right now. Give yourself permission to feel into what your emotions and the feelings in your body are communicating to you and listen. What would be most nourishing, most true to your spirit and most authentic to your body? Allow the unfolding knowing that surfaces to be a wonderful GIFT to yourself. (rather than being afraid of it - which we often are). Then, honor that information and the ask from your body and spirit. Nourish it, love it and do what would be most loving and kind and supportive. Then, if you feel called, open and share your truth with the world. When you do, it models and opens the path for others to show up in their authenticity which helps our hearts heal and makes us all have a more joy filled experience.
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So, even though I was feeling discomfort on my journey to get here, that discomfort had gifts for me and provided an opening for me to connect more deeply with myself and with you. It has also helped me to be energetically accountable, inspired and supported in this co-working space. Just like in group sessions, the energy is amplified when we come together. Our nervous systems co-regulate. Our intentions amplify and our sense of pleasure and safety grows.

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